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What sets Grizel apart is her desire to address a wide spectrum of mental health conditions, and to add nuance to the promise of working through them outdoors. (Photo: Grizel)

This Thru-Hiking Influencer Wants to Talk About Mental Health

Grizel is using her rising social media profile to spark a more nuanced conversation on nature's power to heal

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(Photo: Grizel)

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It was during her first solo backpacking trip in 2017 that Grizel realized how far she鈥檇 come, and how ready she was for change. The then 26-year-old mental health therapist (who goes by her first name professionally) was on an eight-day hike on California鈥檚 High Sierra Trail when a violent storm hit in the middle of the night. It rained and hailed like nothing she鈥檇 seen before鈥攁nd she鈥檇 grown up in Miami.

Until she went on that trip, Grizel had been a self-described timid person and casual hiker. But after surviving a sexual assault earlier in the year, she set her mind on a solo hike, hoping the experience would be empowering and transformative. 鈥淵ou think you鈥檙e going to die,鈥 she says of the aftermath of the assault. 鈥淚 wanted to make sure that everything I did had more purpose and meaning.鈥 So she flew from her home in Tennessee to Las Vegas, hitchhiked to Yosemite, and spent a week on the trail feeling scared and alone. After enduring the storm and climbing Mount Whitney the next day, she realized she wasn鈥檛 afraid anymore. 鈥淚 remember laughing to myself,鈥 she says. 鈥淚 was like, if this is it, then I鈥檓 fine. Ever since then, I鈥檝e been trusting myself.鈥

Before the trip, Grizel was struggling with nearly every aspect of her life鈥攈er belief in Christianity, a series of bad relationships, the office she worked in鈥攂ut fear of letting others down had prevented her from making any big changes. After returning from the High Sierra Trail, Grizel was determined to trust her gut. She quit her job and adopted a dog named Rue. In the years that followed, she through-hiked the Appalachian and Pacific Crest Trails, traveled the country in a Ford Transit van called Arthur, and gradually attracted . Now 29, Grizel has established a successful brand, carving out a social media niche by sharing mental health resources and personal reflections. She supports herself by working with companies like REI and Backcountry, writing stories and producing sponsored content. She also hosts , a new podcast that features conversations with other outdoorspeople on such topics as racism and anxiety.

Recently, other prominent adventure athletes have opened up about their mental health聽battles. Through-hiker Heather Anderson wrote about her off-trail depression. Ultrarunner Rob Krar revealed his lifelong struggle with depression (and now hosts camps that attract runners facing similar challenges). What sets Grizel apart is her desire to address a wide spectrum of mental health conditions, and to add nuance to the promise of working through them outdoors. While many publications, 国产吃瓜黑料 included, tout nature鈥檚 positive effects on people with anxiety, depression, and PTSD, Grizel considers those issues messier than they鈥檙e often portrayed. She worries that presenting outdoor recreation as a quick fix can be misleading.

To highlight that, Grizel draws on personal experience, including her own battle with chronic depression. After moving from Florida to east Tennessee in high school, she fell in love with hiking in the Blue Ridge Mountains. 鈥淚n the outdoors, I always felt a little bit better, but I was never able to pinpoint why,鈥 she says.

More recently, she learned that a life lived mostly outside, while at times blissful, isn鈥檛 a cure-all. During her AT hike in 2019, she struggled with depression, then with guilt about having those feelings while immersed in nature. 鈥淓veryone around me very much expressed, 鈥楾his is the best thing ever,鈥 she says. 鈥淚 had four days where it was just depression, sadness, tearfulness. It鈥檚 extremely isolating.鈥 When she finally confessed how she was feeling to a fellow hiker, the friend was distracted by her phone. 鈥淧eople are like, 鈥榃ow, that sucks.鈥 And that鈥檚 the end of it,鈥 Grizel says.

Grizel has this innate ability to see her story reflected in others without taking away from their story,鈥 says Gale Straub, cofounder of Ravel Media.

With her growing platform, Grizel hopes to model a more compassionate approach to these important on-trail conversations. 鈥淭he outdoors is such a healing space, but it only takes one person to fuck it up,鈥 she says. 鈥淚f I can make a difference to that one person and tell them how to listen or be present, then I did a good job.鈥

On and , Grizel Caminas, she tends toward traditional outdoor content鈥攖ravel recaps, suggestions on building out a van. She gets more personal on , posting reflections about panic attacks or self-worth between odes to her dogs and advice on avoiding giardia. She鈥檚 careful not to present tidy mental health tips or I鈥檓-all-better-now sentiments. 鈥淚 can鈥檛 tell you how many times I get, 鈥榃ow, I never would鈥檝e guessed you struggle with depression鈥攜ou seem so happy,鈥欌 she wrote in one Instagram caption. 鈥淎nd my answer to you: 鈥榊ES, I am fucking happy. But also, I鈥檓 fucking sad too. There is space for both.鈥欌

With Underneath It All, Grizel uses her experience as a therapist to dive even more deeply into these topics. 鈥淕rizel has this innate ability to see her story reflected in others without taking away from their story,鈥 says Gale Straub, cofounder of , which produces the podcast. In a with through-hiker Will Robinson, Grizel stepped back to hear his experiences as an Army veteran and a Black man, but also shared her own stories when she discovered ways their mental health backgrounds intersected. 鈥淲hen my depression is bad, I want to isolate from other people, because I don鈥檛 want to hurt anybody,鈥 she told Robinson. 鈥淚 know exactly what you鈥檙e saying,鈥 he replied. 鈥淲hen I鈥檓 at my darkest moments, I feel like my depression is contagious.鈥

Grizel had plans to tackle the Continental Divide Trail this year. The pandemic put that dream on hold, along with #vanlife in general. When we spoke鈥攐n Zoom, naturally鈥攕he was renting an apartment in Utah. Although opportunities to share travel stories were suddenly limited, Grizel鈥檚 following only increased in 2020, perhaps because mental health issues are more relevant than ever. 鈥淚 think people got stuck with themselves and had to face themselves over the past few months,鈥 she says.

Grizel鈥檚 long-term goal is to run workplace emotional training and retreats for outdoor companies. She knows that building an Instagram following helps her gain traction in the industry, but she also acknowledges that the platform鈥檚 tendency to reflect only the happy part of people鈥檚 lives can be unhealthy. She combats that with raw honesty, a refreshing alternative during the trials of COVID-19. 鈥淚鈥檝e said it a million times鈥攊t鈥檚 okay not to be okay,鈥 she wrote in an April post. 鈥淲hatever you鈥檙e feeling is valid, and I want to help make sense of what I can.鈥

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